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Not to sound cliche' but it all started on a hot summer night in the city. A bunch of us girls had just finished up at an eighth grade graduation party for a coworkers daughter. Which in the city meant a rented hall, including open bar. Tipsy, we decide the night was far from over, LET'S GO OUT! Usually at this point in time in our lives we would have headed to Old City and hit the same circuit of bars that we were "no cover charge" regulars. Oh Pierre and Carlo, the family and friends you gave me to this day still leave me breathless with their beauty. On this night our one friend Lauren said she wanted to travel to 2 street for the bar scene down there. I said, "You mean 2'nd , not 2 St." No they call it 2 St, in Philly. Yet another night of teaching the Delco girl the terms and ways of the city. We made a pit stop at my friend Charisse's and made the quick change from graduation party attire to going out attire. At this point our closets were one big collaboration of each others clothes, so I reached in and grabbed my FAV dress out. Those days I was really rocking my "I have red hair and pale skin because my last name is Maloney" Irish look. The dress I chose was a silky tangerine Bebe dress, and black peep toe pumps. With one look in the mirror, aka an hour later, we were ready to go. In the car, since a lot of my besties at the time were Italian, they said how are you Irish and have never been to 2 St.? This was a rhetorical question, because apparently it was all Irish down there. We pull up to a packed street and Lauren yells out to someone. A minute later, he pops his head into the window, my soulmate. Right there. At 2'nd and Snyder. At 10:00 PM. It's funny the way that God places people who will play major roles in your life at the oddest times, when you least expect it. The two of them talked and said where we were meeting them, Doc's. We found parking and get out of the car, I'm sure we were still if not more buzzed , but after a short walk we were there. My first impression was that it seemed sort of "neighborhoody", which Hello I moved out of Delco to avoid this whole scene. Then we went in., and the music was phenom! For me, the music / DJ can totally make or break the night. This guy was great. Even though the bar itself was packed we found our way to the back and found room on the dance floor. And we were off! We loved to dance! In the midst of our hard core, breaking it down, screaming " I love this song" to every song there was. So she brings him up to us and says, " This is my brother John Paul," Seriously? I had known her at this point in time for like four years and I never knew you had a brother!? She finishes her sentence with, " and his girlfriend." Wow. Seriously? That sucks. He's really hot too, but I was recently single and on the whole there's more fish in the sea kick. On to the next one.... but I couldn't stop catching his eyes every now and then. There was something about him. We danced and drank and had a grand time... me and the girls! In the AM Charisse, Lauren, And I wake up and gone on with our rough morning rituals which simply included coffee, breakfast sandwiches, cigarettes, and morning t.v. We would sit in silence, reminiscing on last nights extravaganzas. I broke the silence with ," Can we please talk about your brother?" within the first month of hanging out solo I swear I fell in love with him for 3 reasons..... #1. He wanted to play Rummy (only on of my fav past times!)... #2. When talking movies he asked if I had ever seen Captain Ron!! Which meant he was a movie buff like myself. And #3. We went to A.C. and he danced with me ALL night. I love to dance. (p.s. where this picture at the top was taken... A.C. at 4 AM.) Oh this boy... he had me twisted. I was all 90's style like," I like the way you work it, no dignity, I got to bag it up." Let's fast forward. We had this whole five year plan, in which Cancer was not included. He had this whole line like I was a car he was leasing, and in 3 years if he loved it he would buy. At the time, I laughed, thinking how uninterested I was in a "forever" kind of relationship. How little did he know that I would have him wrapped around my finger in one date. How he would be the one crying when I didn't return his calls. Yet all it took was one kiss. The connection I felt with this man was one of a kind. I remember calling him in the whirl wind of the E.R. I have no idea what I said to him or how he responded, but when I came out of surgery there he was. John Paul is on the more serious side to begin with, but that night I saw a completely different level of seriousness. Trying to comfort him was a nice distraction to what was going on with myself. When your partner gets Cancer it's almost as if you get it as well. Both lives are in for a drastic change. With his type A personality I tried my hardest to make him comprehend this situation, and I told him to go home and research. He is one to get understanding through facts. As Oasis would say,"i don't believe that anybody feels the way I do about you now. Because there are many things that I would like to say to you but I don't know how, because maybe... your going to be the one that saves me, and all the roads we have to walk are winding. There are many things that I would like to say to you , but I don't know how." Through out this experience there has been times I have had to remind him of how sick I was, mentally and physically. Our relationship was put on hold in such an awkward manner, its indescribable. How nice to know that a man still finds you sexually attractive, when you have never felt more undesirable in your life. He always found ME attractive. Don't ask me how, but he to this day still wants this. What a God sent. Some secretly thought he would leave me through this, to be honest it never even crossed my mind. Here we stand, together, on the other side of this. Being the man that he is I knew he would be there for me now and always, because after all..... he's my wonderwall, and nothings more important then getting our fairytale on.You can bet that, never got to sweat that. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=S1BHo84wSEw
